everthing is out

Phew.......
At last, i was able to gather all the courage that was left in me to CONFESS

the feeling of guilt, dirty, sinful, rejected has been haunting me all these time

of course, i'm clearly aware that what has been done, can't possibly be undone, the damage, the pain, the feeling of betrayal
is not that easy for one to bear with,
for that, forgiveness takes time

Hearing whispers behind my back is indeed very uncomfortable,
but i know i should be prepared, for what i've commited is not something that is acceptable to most
It is a great sin, a crime after all

However, i'm praying for a second chance
to prove not only to others, but most importantly, myself
that i've repented, and willing to change for the better

To those whom i've failed and hurt,
I know that a simple 'sorry' is not enough
but 'sorry' is what i can tell you now, very sorry
for my foolish act, my lack of determination to fight against the temptation of the devil and the unwise decisions i've made

I can assure you,
that through this, a lesson was learnt,
though it came by the hard way to make me realise how deep i've falled into the pit of sin

and, thanks for others whom are still willing to stay by my side
to support and encourage me
through this times of trials

I've repent, see me change,
then judge me again.....